Two lovers entwined pass me by and heaven knows I’m miserable now
— The Smiths - Heaven Knows I’m Miserable Now
So this is how it feels to be lonely
This is how it feels to be small
This is how it feels when your word means nothing at all
— Inspiral Carpets - This Is How It Feels
Got a low low feeling around me
And a stone cold feeling inside
And I just can’t stop messing my mind up
Or wasting my time
— Supergrass - Moving
An update since it’s been a while since I last posted anything
- I dropped out of college
- I can’t stop thinking about killing myself
- I found out I’m not going to have any money coming in between now and February
That’s pretty much all.
There’s nothing nice in my head
The adult world took it all away
I wake up with same spit in my mouth
I cannot tell if it is real or not
— Manic Street Preachers - From Despair to Where
It may be because I’ve watched almost nothing else for months but Parks & Rec really nails the emotional moments.
I started college a few weeks ago, which is why I’ve barely posted anything recently. It’s probably a positive step life-wise but it certainly doesn’t feel that way..
I spend most of my time resenting the place and so virtually every day is spent either at college or unable to take my mind off having to go back the following day.
The work doesn’t seem challenging and it looks unlikely that it’ll help me get onto the course I want to be on but I’m going to attempt to remain positive for the sake of postponing my eventual suicide.
Won’t you stay with me just a little longer
It always seems like your leaving
When I need you here just a little longer
— Violent Femmes - Good Feeling
I’ve not seen this mentioned anywhere but was the homeless woman in The Internet is Coming the same actress as the crazy woman (Judy or Julie?) who goes after Roy in an early episode?
Ed - Having checked, no it was not.
And , so I drank one
It became four
And when I fell on the floor
I drank more
— The Smiths - Stop Me if You Think You’ve Heard This One Before
Why isn’t Becker on TV any more?
A whole bunch of mediocre 90s sitcoms are still shown a shit tonne but for whatever reason Becker stopped being shown on Paramount 2 (as I think it then was.) It used to be my go to program when I’d just got home from school.
Also it’s 4:37 on Sunday morning and I have no one to talk to.